My Daughter Always Makes Me Think
After her friend left she asked me about Santa Claus and I just looked at her and smiled. All she asked was how we could have afford the electric guitar "Santa" gave her this year. She was quiet for a bit and then said, "So I suppose the Easter Bunny?" Bright kid.
It was a relief to no longer have to pretend but it was sad as well. My little girl is one step closer to adulthood and one giant leap further from childhood. I'm not ready to lose my sweet baby but I do enjoy watching her blossom into a brilliant young woman. Of course all is peppered by an ache in my soul for the mother I will never know and grandmother my daughter will never know. It is all so sad if one allows the truth to come in and examines it with an open mind. The loss of a family, the loss of an identity, the loss of a history and a future. "Grandma" will never hear the story of the Tooth Fairy Caper and will never know the joy of this special little girl. Come to think of it she has missed out on two special little girls only one is a woman now.